Do not mess with me!

Anyeong~

Today's not a really bright day to me. Raining since 6am till now, waiting for the key-holder (a person) who doesn't seem to appear even after 4 hours, and stuck in this hyper-cold library updating blog with library's PC coz my laptop's Windows crashed last weekend and I'm yet to get my salary in two-weeks time. Damn. Good news, i just googled 'how to retrieve data from hard disk' and find a solution through 'Puppy Linux'. But then, i need to use the laptop in the office to burn the downloaded file into cd first. Did I mention earlier that I'm stuck in a cold library because someone took the key yesterday and not coming yet till now? Why people are so unmindful about time? It irritates me. Guess I will need to update on how my repair-the-laptop-all-on-my-own-coz-i-am-short-of-money going on in the next entry. Again, bad bad start of the day. Hope it won't stay this way for the rest of it.

Hey, can someone switch off the air-conditioner? I'm freezing.

Talking about mood, it's totally ruined since yesterday, actually. I'm not a moody type, not easily affected by anything accept people. Yes, some people do upset me. You know this kind of people who never see anything good in you, keep complaining and giving demotivating comments about how you look or what you do or what you say, yet could not accept it when others give the same remarks to them? I say 'keep' because it continuously happens. Comments should be encouraging, not destructive. The weird part is, no matter how negative they are about you they are still there tailing you wherever you go like you're the air they need to keep on living. Then why the negatives? I just don't understand. Does it make you feel more secure and confident? Oh, come on.

And some people believe it's the way they've been brought up, their family, the culture that make them who they are at present. Yes, I believe so too. But that doesn't give you the right to be blatant to others just because all your life it's the way you communicate with family members and it's somehow acceptable. That doesn't make you get easy apology when others are hurt by your misdeeds. And by 'hurt' i mean not just by the way you act, that's easy to avoid, it's the words your use. They're splinters. Don't tell me no one have ever told you about it. And don't blame those people talking on your back coz they know there's no way they're gonna get away with it telling you face-to-face. Put aside the E.G.O.

Have you heard of 'adaptation'? It means change in behavior of a person or group in response to new or modified surroundings (yes, i took this from Answers.com). No matter where you came from, when settling in a new place, adapt to it. What's nice in your place can be totally insulting in another, nonetheless we have to blend with it and try to accept in order to be accepted. I myself is not a saint nor an angle. I've hurt people too. Because we are all human. One thing we could and should do is to learn from the mistakes and to not repeat them again. Not so easy as it may sound, very little people who know their mistake can actually accept and ultimately change it. "This is me after all. Accept me for who i am" they may say. Well, we accept you just as you wish, then we're gone. Live by your own. Changing doesn't mean losing yourself, my dear. Just do it for the better. You'll realize everyone around becoming more real towards you. They're faking it all this time, trust me. Anyway, just bear this in mind, human can forgive, in fact easily forgive, but when the same thing experienced again and again, the wound gets deeper and that would sure leave a scar than remains almost forever.

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There it goes all my blabberings. Just because the day started off not-so-nice. So mengada kan? hehe.. I did this simply to release the tense I've been accumulating throughout the week, not just today. So, do not take it to heart. It's actually more of a reminder for you and me so that we'll lead a happier life in future, ok?

Now back to the usual me. No concerns and happily ever after~ ^^

P/S: Why Little Fockers is not shown here in East Coast Mall, Kuantan? grrrrrrr!!!!!